Hands turned manic and hungry in the dream as we shoved on through each room in the house, your hand slipping down my skirt and hazy clouds troubling my eyes until they are leaking glass on your bare chest. How did we get here? How did we reach this world where only in a dream can I feel a goodbye leaving your lips and lodging in my ribs? I loved you more than that. You loved us more than that.
Seeing you in your new life woke your ghost up for me once more, let him wander through my door and letting him stain my bedsheets. That immediate and intense recognition at the bar hit me like the bourbon always settles in my kneecaps and makes me faint. If her cough syrup hair can soothe you more than my mocha strands, I am truly happy for you. Her soft eyes and curved chin, I can see they will fit perfectly in your palm.
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Letting go is hardest with dreams haunting us all the time.
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I hate those dreams.Hope everything is okay lovely.xx
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i am envious that you can be truly happy for him.... actually, i admire it. but i just don't know if i can ever be that selfless. (the beginning of the dream is so sexy!)
ReplyDeletemmmm, all of this. one of my favorites you've written.
ReplyDeleteI just caught myself up on your last few blog posts - you never cease to amaze me! This piece in particular is so atmospheric... I just think it's so beautiful. It reminds me a lot of this song by Kristen Hersh - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZfW4-nP2G1Q
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wish I could be truly happy he's found another one too... and though I am happy that he's happy... I can help but feel sad and depressed and like a failure... I wish I was her... I wish I was her so badly... I wish my soft eyes and curved chin would fit perfectly in his palm...
ReplyDeleteyou do write beautifully.... this post is amazing.. got me feeling a bit of goosebumps on my arms... sad and true, at least for me too...
btw..thanks for your awesome comments on my artwork, I appreciate it a lot, truly, thank you!... stay cool :) hugs!
i remember one of my first comments on your blog being something like 'your writing always makes me feel so much' and that really is what i could comment on every post of yours.
ReplyDeleteDreams. I've had some really intense ones lately. Dunno if this dream was literally yours, but dreams really get to me too. I have to say, these last few posts are phenomenal.
ReplyDeleteEm, you're beautiful!!!!!! I'm so glad you're a writer.
ReplyDeleteWhy is it that dreams can seem so much more real than reality?
ReplyDeletethese dreams are heavy. i know the kind. i wake up either relived that it was a dream or with an intense sadness in my bones.
ReplyDeleteThis is heartbreaking. I know the feeling the overwhelming wondering just how and why all of this happened and ended up like this? Sometimes dreams are the loneliest places x
ReplyDeleteA very well-written post! I can only imagine how hard it is for you to move on, especially if that person left you with so much to remember. It's really hard to be happy when you're being left out. It's heartbreaking to let your beloved go away from you, but it's your only way to find the man who perfectly suits you. Think positive. Someone out there still waits for your attention and love. :)
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Thank you for your kind words, Ayin. I've been thinking about this post a lot lately and it's good to hear new thoughts about it. The past has been waking up for me recently and I needed a reminder to be positive. Thanks for reading :)
DeleteThank you for your kind words, Ayin. I've been thinking about this post a lot lately and it's good to hear new thoughts about it. The past has been waking up for me recently and I needed a reminder to be positive. Thanks for reading :)
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