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Be Prolific Series: Ebrahim Ghaeini

Wednesday, July 1

My second interview in my Be Prolific Series of local artists was a sheer delight. I've known local filmmaker and director Ebrahim Ghaeini indirectly for many years, a crazy amount of years actually. I've been quietly on the sidelines watching him create his art and his production company and what better opportunity to interview him for my blog and find out more about him! I wrote about one of his short films here and was so excited to find out more about that film and his filmmaking process.

Ebbie is one of the most intelligent and thoughtful people I have ever had the pleasure of talking with. I cannot wait for more deep conversations with this man because there is so much I want to learn from him and talk with him about. He has such a sensitive eye for people, film, and the world. He has a beautiful labyrinth of a mind; you can see him actively walking through that labyrinth as he talks, picking the perfect words before speaking. I loved having the honor of interviewing him and can't wait to share his words with you all now.

*All photos in this post used with permission from Ebrahim Ghaeini.


How would you describe the style of your films?

In terms of stylistic choices, we really like going on location and going to nature to film things in real environments. We want things to look as natural and believable as possible. And this is my personal directing philosophy, but I feel that when an artist or an actor, when you are in an environment, you are sensitive to that environment. Writers need to write in a certain environment and they draw off the stimuli and they draw inspiration and information from what is around them. It's important for actors to draw from that in nature.

I come from a place where I can't stand seeing a thousand props on stage or in a movie and people don't touch them. We don't do that day to day, we are constantly interacting with our environment. I think that makes our style. We have this raw edgy look where it's maybe outer-worldly but it's also very tangible. We want people to believe that whatever is going on, fantasy or psychological, we want people to believe it's real. That's what I want to do stylistically and that's also very connected to my introverted side. Nature is the best medicine and therapy you can get. When you go to nature you are going home. I always see nature as home to me.  

What aspects of film do you take part in? 

I do it all. I write, I direct, I'll help design lighting, I'll do sound editing. With music, I know how I want it to sound. I send it to the editor and I know the specific emotion of how I want it to sound. I do dabble in everything. I don't know if that's me being a control freak or if it's because our company doesn't have the big crew or anything yet. Anything that involves the design I like to be involved in. I like to do that because I find it to be a crucial part in our films. 

What sparked your interest in filmmaking?

When I was two years old, I was obsessed with the movie ET. I would watch it three times a day probably. At two years old, there's a video of me getting the VHS out and putting it in myself. My mother would say that even at that age, if I was in the other room and I could hear the music, like when they are flying over the moon with their bikes, I would stand up and say "bike bike!!" and I recognized that part of the movie. I was very sensitive to films at a very young age. I have a vague memory of setting up all of these animal figurines I had into a stampede resembling Lion King and my mom found me taking pictures of it with their camera. 

I think it was something I did in my free time just for fun. To say what sparked it was, I think, I was just always kind of emotionally empathetic to films and to storytelling. I would cry like a baby to many films and still do. My parents eventually got me a VHS camera and I would film with my friends in the backyard and then immediately take the tape out and go watch it. It was just always a part of my life and my childhood.

Do you work full time as a filmmaker?

Yes, currently I am. Sometimes it's editing work, it's not always directing. Sometimes it's just being the film crew or being a PA on another set. I've done weddings and wedding photography. I've shot dances and stuff like that as well.



What is your favorite part of the filmmaking process?

There's a lot of parts that really speak to me and get me intrigued and one of the main ones is just in the beginning. The brainstorming, the research when you are developing a new idea. It just sends tingles down your spine when your brain is starting to fill with these images. The other day we were discussing a new short film we wanted to embark on Someone will say something and describe an image and someone else will add to it and suddenly you're building this emotional story in everyone's brains. I think the reason that's so exciting is because it's when you are most vulnerable in a creative sense. You aren't worrying about the technical side or if we have the budget. It's so organic and definitely my favorite part. 

What's the hardest part of the filmmaking process?

I'm a big perfectionist when I watch  my creative work, not on purpose or because I want to see the negatives. I see where things can get better and improved. So if on a Tuesday you say this is great, three days later you say I should have done this and then five years later you can be grateful you didn't change it. I think that's an interesting comment on art because art is so relative. Art is changing even after it has been abandoned. There's a lot of different things that you feel all over again when you revisit a work and that can be hard. 

I think on this most recent film it was hard for me to re-edit because I had to go feel all of these emotions again. I had to feel the pain and the sorrow and it's hard to become attached and detached and attach again. It's hard to watch and then go live your real life again. That's very hard for me actually, letting my projects go. It's like saying ok, I'm not going to touch it anymore but it's my baby that I've built for two years. Letting go is the hardest part, you know?

How do you get the ideas for your films and the scripts you write?

Something I love even more than filmmaking is storytelling. I wish my official title was storyteller because that's what I feel I truly am. I get my ideas from that feeling of wanting to impact people. Everyone I work with during the entire process is a storyteller and they are drawing experiences from their life or fantasies they create with what they take from the world. It's because I want to say something or express something just like we all do, which I think is fascinating. It's a human necessity to tell stories, it's a natural instinct. Filmmaking allows me to impact and that's the cool part of it all, you have power to control or bring out emotions. You can make people feel things they never though they could feel for someone or something. You're dream creators. Sure we can feel empathy in their daily lives but it's in dreams where you find out how deeply affected you are by a real life situation. I think it's much the same with storytelling.



Do you prefer directing your own scripts or working with the works of others?

I've done both. I think the reason I write is because it helps me connect emotionally to a project I want to express and then I can direct it more purely. I've done some other scripts where I've tried to direct it but I didn't feel the story. If I don't feel completely in it I will have a hard time making the audience feel. It's like it doesn't sound with my soul. Artistically I've always been that way. In school I remember when someone was telling me what sort of art to do, I'd flip because to me art works as an expression. No one is gonna go up to Van Gogh and tell him a shadow shouldn't be there. 

To choose a script it has to morally sound with me and choose me. It's something I'm always surprised at and sometimes I can shut it off. I mean, I'm not at a place in my career where I can pick and choose but if I can take that power, I will if I can. There are many stories I come across, however, that I would love to take part in. I want to experience what those writers felt while they wrote it. 

Tell me about starting your own production company.

My friends Josh and John and I made a film called Blooming my senior year of high school and into the beginning of college. That really changed, I think, all of our lives. Josh and John were the primary actors but they were behind the scenes all the time. Because we were such young kids it was a huge learning experience for us, better than any sort of workshop or college class I could have had because we did it ourselves. 

I remember being absurdly frustrated with college because they wouldn't let me get a camera or get any hands on experience until my last year and so I just started doing stuff on my own. After that original film we thought, "Now what?" Do we stop here or do we keep going?" Josh and John were the ones who wanted to make these stories and experiences. We knew it was going to be fucking hard but why not?  



What does that business mostly entail? 

For a while it was us trying to get any type of video/film related work as possible. Even if we found a production on craigslist we would take those jobs and represent us to get our name out there. The company is geared to us and people like us, young entrepreneurs trying to get work with their craft. We see everything as an opportunity to learn. Even for a wedding, you need to tell their story on their day. It's training for us; it's a chance to use our storytelling art. 

Describe your creative process?

When I stay away from film when I'm creative, that's what gets me juiced about it. I take books camping with me and I read a ton. I'm quite introverted and I think that's how I operate. I read, I camp, I go back to classical works. Also experiencing life is the best thing you can do. You have to live life if you want to be creative. You're gonna draw from those experiences. Sometimes I think the best thing to do is just to go to Europe for three months and live and see what sort of creativity creeps up after that journey. Why not, right? But yeah, experience. That's where you find the heart and gold of any story you are going to tell. 

How did acting change how you are as a director?

I loved learning how to tell stories through theater. I have taken the lessons I learned from acting and put them into my career. I learned about the energy you want to give to the actors and the team. I can give them what they need so they can be the artist they are and contribute who they are to the film. I'm not the only creative individual on set. I don't want my films to be a boring job for my actors. You know when the creative juices are flowing on set. I want them to be passionate about their project and excited to work with me and the rest of the team. Every actor is different and I'm glad I learned that now that I'm directing. I try to be sensitive to the actor's needs so they are free to express themselves. 

Shooting Moments of Clarity
What was it that inspired your short film Moments of Clarity?

A lot of things. I never perceived making Moments because before I made this movie, I was very strictly narrative and very classical in my film making. I didn't think too much about how stories were told. I had a very clear vision of how they needed to be told. I was going through my life, I was dating and experiencing relationships with people. I think loss, not necessarily in relationships but loss of childhood and change and moving on and almost watching our life change in front of you. All of these things happened to me and people around me and I couldn't explain it. I've used film as sort of the only way to express those feelings. It's honestly one of the reasons I do art is to express when I can't speak. With Moments I couldn't write it down or say what it was verbally and that's why I had to make it; because it was undefinable. I can't tell you exactly what it is or where it came from. Moments was a big surprise to me and everyone else, especially how abstract it turned out.


How are festival submissions for Moments going?

We successfully did our KickStarted, so thank you to everyone who supported and believes in us. We just got our discs set up for submissions and we just attended our first film festival, FilmQuest, which was absurdly awesome. We have submitted to 42 festivals so far which I don't think is a lot for normal submissions but this is all new for us; we've never entered this circuit before. 

But it's not about festivals to me. I mostly like meeting other artists and filmmakers. It's the opportunity for our film to speak to people and that's all I can ask for. Even if it doesn't win awards or go to more festivals, I take it all as a blessing.

What do you want people to get from your films? What do you want to be known for?

I think I just want people to feel something. I think if someone feels something, negative or positive, it's a good thing. I think if they felt nothing, it's bad. Even if it was negative, at least it affected them. It made them question themselves or react a certain way. I don't want people to feel like they are wasting their time. With a movie, we don't think about time a lot nowadays because it's everywhere to be wasted. Time is pocket change now. But I respect time and I want to be respectful of viewers who are giving their time to my films. I don't want people to feel like they are wasting time. I can never give that time back. If it's not effective, I don' want it to be a waste. Like what the fuck is the point if it doesn't change you? If one person is affected I feel like I've done my job as an artist. that's all I could ask for. 

What other filmmakers inspire you?
I've been on a Daniel Day Lewis binge lately. I've very awed by a lot of the cinematic world, all of the roles in it. Musicians inspire me so much; I was blown away by the score of There Will Be Blood. Directorially, Spielberg rings with my childhood. Scorsese has a fantastic way of telling stories. Darren Aronofsky is very insightful. I love the Coen brothers. Ron Howard is extremely touching. It's very hard to hard to pick just one!

How do you find inspiration when you hit a road block?

I be alone. I search and I go out and experience other forms of art. I dance, I paint and draw, I play guitar and piano. I write poetry, I read. I inundate myself in other forms of storytelling and artistic mediums. If whatever I'm trying to say isn't coming out through filmmaking or if I'm not read for another film, I must be feeling a feeling that I need to express elsewhere. I go to other mediums. I recently took a pottery class because I just knew I had to do it. 

Can you tell me a little bit about your next big project?

There are a lot of ideas in the air. Right now I'm taking time to just do some work and maybe wanted to act a little bit to take a break. I don't feel the need to pump out a film every month but that's not to say I haven't been struck with some fascinating ideas in the past few months. I have been flirting with the idea of a literary adaptation for a while because I have a very sincere place in my heart for literature. I want to honor it and if I don't I may kill myself. I'm a bit morally nervous about that. I really want to do a short film of Dante's Inferno and I want to be respectful as a scholar. 

If not that, I think we are moving to a very science fiction direction without using too many special effects. I'm very upset with the digital world that film has started to depend on. If we go that direction, we want it to be prop and set based and alienesque, make it more tangible. Very heavily related on the science of it all. We are about teaching people things. 

What is your advice to other artists/ filmmakers?

Listen. Listen to everyone and no one because no one knows what you are going through. No one knows you and what you have and you need to listen to that. At the same time you need to observe, see, and learn. Learn form other people. That doesn't mean you have to follow them or learn from them directly. 

If someone tells you your story isn't work doing just say, "Well fuck, you don't know, do you?" Take in what they say but do you. Be passionate, take your time. All good things come. Good things come through a process. Learn from other's experience; it's relative to everyone. I could give a thousand advices but at the end of the day, do what is best for you. 


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A huge huge HUGE thank you to Ebbie for sitting down with me and filling me with more inspiration and passion than I can fit in one post or on one whole blog. Also I've said it once and I'll say it again... Ebbie... if you do decide to do Inferno, I will play Satan so hard. Just, you know, let me know. 

Thank you for reading the interview and giving my blog your time. Like Ebbie, I don't believe in wasting time and can only hope that you have gained as much as I have from this interview and my writing in general. Til next month, lovelies.

Also, please check out Blooming Studio's Facebook page and the page for Ebbie's short film, Moments of Clarity. Links abound below!

Be Prolific Series: Cat Palmer

Monday, June 1

For my first jaunt into the art world, I summoned up all the bravery I could muster and reached out to one of my absolute favorite local artists, Cat Palmer. She is a photographer who chooses to use her art to focus on human empowerment, especially focusing on women. She has been working and living in Salt Lake City but her work is much more far reaching than that. Her work has always resonated with me because she is always able to capture what looks to me like the raw essence of humanity. Her photo projects and even just her personal selfies always give me an amazing sense of confidence and strength in myself.

I sat down with Cat at Zest in Downtown SLC to talk about her photography and what makes her who she is. She was amazingly open and her candor was incredibly refreshing, almost as refreshing as the fresh cocktails at the restaurant. She talks with an insatiable passion (especially about feminism) and talking with her would leave anyone excited to create and inspire.

*All photos used in this post used with permission from Cat Palmer and can be found on her website. (Minus the selfie we took together)


How would you describe your photography?

There are two sides to the business. There is the commission side where I take photos of people naked (PS her boudoir shoots are the stuff of dreams), weddings, families; that's the bulk of my income. That's what makes it so I can eat fancy food all the time. Then there is the art I do for me. That's mainly mixed media. Photography on metal with an urban fine art feel. It always has a very industrial feel to it. Most of what I've done for the past 11 years has had a message or political message. I stopped taking pretty pictures for the sake of pretty pictures in about 2006. I won't do those anymore. It has to have some sort of meaning for me.

Not only that, art is also very therapeutic for me. I'm always working through something when I do art. Bush gave me a lot of material when he was in office. I was also focused on women for a long time. I think women are more beautiful than men. Women inspire me more and I don't know if it's because I am a woman and I deal with those issues.

I've noticed through your Instagram and Facebook that you have quite the addiction to gas masks. What's got you so hooked on them?

I've always really liked really industrial looking, metal stuff. When people see flowers, it's aesthetically pleasing to those people and it pleases those people. When I see gas masks I think they are aesthetically pleasing and they are like flowers to me. I would rather get gas masks than flowers any day. 

I Am Human Series, 2008
What sparked your interest in photography?

I had to sign up for an elective in High School when I was 15 and most girls were taking home economics and that never really interested me and I didn't want to do mechanics. Photography caught my attention most and my grandparents used to have a dark room in their house and we had a lot of cameras. We already owned all of the equipment and I signed up on a whim. And then my teacher M, he taught us on a college level. The stuff he did with us... I don't know if another High School teacher would do this with their classes. He would take us to LA or Venice Beach and let us loose for hours just shooting us on the streets. By my senior year I was in his classroom about four hours a day. For one of my classes, he let me write my own curriculum and that was the first time I shot nudes. he said as long as it was tasteful I could do what I want. I mean, these were underaged kids after all.

He was amazing and he was the one who told me I reminded him of Diane Arbus. I was 15 and didn't know who that was. So I went to the library and checked out a huge book of her and fell in love. She photographs people in society that society deemed unworthy and she saw the beauty in them and I couldn't believe that he would breathe my name in the same sentence with her. She's where my passion for people came from so I started shooting homeless people on the streets of LA in the mid 90s. I took a video camera around with me everywhere and interviewed everyone. Drug dealers, prostitutes. I don't know how I didn't fucking die. Like, I was a teenage girl interviewing homeless people on the streets. I was missing the fear chip.

Super Hero Series, 2012
Are you a full time artist?

Yes. I've been shooting for 20 years but shooting professionally for 11. For 6 years I've been doing it full time. It was a lot of fucking work to get to this point. It did not happen overnight. I also would not encourage people to do this full time. For five years, I had a real job where I was making a decent living with health and vacation time and during all of that I was building my clients so that when I left my job I had built up my clients to a point where I could survive. My sons say they want to be artists and I say yes, that's a great idea but you have to stay safe and get an education, take care of yourself. With art you have to be prolific and talented and I am neither of those things. I have lucked out because I have gotten enough attention with the local media. I am really good at marketing myself so I'm just kind of faking it until I make it type thing.

When did you know you wanted to use your photography as a platform for women and empowerment?

It stared with the 'I Am Human' series. It gave me that platform and that boost that people were paying attention to. I thought no one was going to care about this or hang it in their living room but I sold out of that series. I started reflecting on my own issues and what I was going through and I think I was projecting that into the series. It directly had to do with what I was working through at the time. Most of the series I have done for selfish reasons and it turns out that a lot of people related to them. Like my 'Keep Politicians Out of Our Vaginas' series. They were saying awful things and at some point I realized the media was picking up on that and my art and I knew I couldn't waste this platform. for another project I had 14 women shave their heads. I was so sick of women being told how to do themselves and their hair so I had the women shave their heads. That was five years ago. I would approach women and ask them if they wanted to shave their heads for this project. That was also the third time I shaved my head.

You Don't OWN Me/ Keep The Politicians out of our Vaginas, 2012
What is it about a shaved head that gets you?

It's fucking liberating. I was doing this project on loving myself more and I wanted to get more familiar with my face and to start loving myself on that level. And I started to keep this daily journal and I wanted to come from this space of not being able to look at a photo of myself without crying. Now I can see the beauty in myself and in other people. It's liberating and you can't hide with a shaved head. Your eyes pop, your lips pop, your features come out in a way that you would never realize. I also find it so raw and beautiful. God, it so fucking beautiful.

Age of Aesthetics, 2010
How do you think of the themes for your collections?

They usually come to me in the shower. The shower is my quiet meditative time. It's when you are in your most raw form and at that time I have visions of what I want to do. I usually have a very clear vision of what I want to accomplish. Or if something is really pissing me off (ie, republicans) that will be it. Things I overhear inspire me. I thought once you were a teenager all of this 'hating yourself' thing would stop but then I realized it was women of all ages. I think if we say positive things about ourselves we thing we are bragging but we aren't. I want to help people, especially women, realize that so I think a lot of my ideas stem from that. 

Describe your creative process.

Usually I work with big groups so i have to organize it, so sometimes it takes months. So I plan it out, swear them to secrecy, shoot it, edit it, print them, putting them on metal and working with that whole process. It usually takes about six months from start to finish.

What was the thought behind your Star Wars Femme Fatale shoot? (One of my favorites)

Literally that was in the middle of the night and I have a thing for women and Star Wars. At 2AM I post on Facebook "I want to do a shoot and I want hot women to wear these helmets." I was like "If you have a hot body contact me." In the middle of that night this shoot was planned in an hour. All of these women have insomnia and are online in the middle of the night. They are so hot, so fucking beautiful and I put masks on them! So that was my own fantasy in the middle of the night. 

Femme Fatale Series, 2013
Do you usually photograph professional models or just normal people?

I prefer just people. A lot of times I prefer real people.I don't know if it's because I'm a photographer but I feel like I can see their beauty better than they can see it themselves. When I become friends with people I just want them to see themselves like I do. They have no fucking clue how beautiful they are but I think a lot of people are that way. I also like real people. I also have really pretty friends.

You use yourself as the subject of many of your collections and photos. What is the reasoning behind that?

Self esteem struggles. When I left my husband, I really believed nobody would ever find me attractive but I would rather be alone than in this miserable marriage. Luckily I had a best friend who believed in me and saw me and encouraged me to keep these daily pictures of myself and I would take really bad photos of myself because I wanted to be very ok with myself and not just the flattering photos. I did a series of myself when I wanted to start feeling better. My son took 3 photos of me with no makeup, everyday makeup, and full makeup. I wrote down everything anyone had ever said to my face. I had all of the negative things coming into my ears with full makeup on. The no makeup was the same idea but with the nice things people have said. It was super therapeutic to realize that it was everyone else's issues they were projecting onto me and not my own. 

I lost fifty pounds, but even if I don't lose anymore, I feel good about myself. Women want validation from strangers on dating sites and I don't need that. I don't want the validation from strangers because they don't know my true beauty. I did some soul work with meditation. It was two years of a lot of fucking work to get where I am now. I am a champion of the selfie because I know how long it took me to become comfortable looking at myself. I can see it in other people when they have to start loving themselves.

"My son shooting my image"- To Love One's Self Series, 2014
My Path, To Love One's Self Series, 2014
What do you think is the hardest thing facing females and/or female artists?

I feel like generally, Salt Lake is more liberal as far as arts go. But I feel like a lot of people have taken me less seriously than they should have but I haven't really noticed because I'm in my own world. I've had to deal with a lot of sexual harassment that men don't have to deal with. I get comments that men probably don't. I fucking hate the comments. But that's those people and that's all they talk about. The sexual harassment and the stalking. People wanting to touch you and thinking it's ok because it 'The Art World.'

In general though, women are facing fucking everything. The wage gap. People thing it's not a really thing but it is. People are legit qualified and making 30% less because they are women. When we are assertive, we are bossy but a guy is a powerful leader. We are not bossy, we are getting shit done. The word feminist, also, needs to not be looked at as a bad word. The true feminist is an equalist who also loves men. We fight for men as well as women.

Blaming. Rape culture. Rape culture is being taught in all major religions right now. Fucking teach your boys not to have bad thoughts about women. Period. Gender discrimination, women having their place; I'm still hearing that to this day. The misogynistic issues are everywhere. We have to fight it together. 

What other artists/photographers inspire you?

Generally photographers who do people or gritty work. I'm not into landscapes. I can appreciate what they can accomplish but the have never done it for me. Inanimate objects don't inspire me. I love photos of real people. Their photos are so raw and perfect and up close on peoples' faces. I love seeing the dirt and wrinkles on faces. I love street artist like Swoon. Urban art is more what I'm into that photography.

What was the switch to digital photography like?

Ha, joining the dark side as I call it. I joined the dark side in 2006 because that's when I felt like the technology was finally there. I miss the dark room. I had a love affair with the dark room for son long and I fucking miss that. It is cheaper and easier for me to do digital. I don't know which to say I prefer because I use both for different reasons. But I do miss the texture and graininess of the film Sometimes the technology is too clean for me.

Learn how to Merge, 2004
How do you find inspiration when your muse has left you?

That just happened. I'm coming out of a four year funk. I don't create when I'm at my least happy point. I only create when I do have that inspiration again. I don't force it. I let it come to me. When it feels right, it feels right. Sometimes, all artists will have dry spells. That's hard. Take showers. Clear your head. Try to get away. Unplug.

Do you have a favorite book?

I used to read so much. My favorite book is The Little Prince. Metaphorically speaking, it is spot on. Every adult should read it because we lose touch with our inner child and we need to rediscover that. I love Ray Bradbury as well. To Kill a Mockingbird. Roald Dahl is not really known for his short stories but he has over 300. I own that compilation and I love it.

How do yo feel about the intersection of social media and art?

It's a huge part of my income, honestly. Without social media, I don't know how I would get word out about what I do. I rely heavily on it. People share my stuff and it gets my stuff out there more than if I didn't have it. It does make everyone feel like they are a photographer but I don't feel very threatened by it. I found my own niche and I don't feel threatened by anyone else. There's room for everyone.

What is your advice to young artists?

Be prolific. Create create create create create. Each year you are going to grow and get better. Find a mentore who can answer your questions and take you under their wing. Don't let the downers get you down. You have to have a thick skin. I know we are all wounded artists but some people aren't going to like you rwork. Not everyone likes everthing; I know I'm doing something right when people don't like my work. You've gotta have that attitude.

You need a network and to get out there. Market your work on social media. A lot of artist are scared to talk about themselves but you have to learn how to do it. Learn how to write a press release. Know the ins and outs of your city and the galleries or places you want to apply to.

There's so much. But creating and being prolific is huge. Mostly, just never stop.

Who Will Be Our Hero, 2006
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I would like to give a huge unyielding thank you to Cat Palmer for taking the time to sit down with me as well as inspiring me so much. I was unsure about this idea to interview artists and putting myself out there until I sat down with her. I knew this was something I wanted to do, but she has shown me how much these interviews can mean to me, and hopefully to you all as well. 

Thank you for reading and be on the look out for more interviews soon! I'm hoping to post one a month :)

Me and the lovely Cat Palmer. Clearly, not taken by the professional.
Please check out more of Cat's work on her website and Facebook pages.