wasted daylight

Water color clouds bleed across

the azure page as your

thought inch up my spine

like ink.

The ghost of your fingertips

brush past my wrist,

down my palm,

nesting on my nail beds.

Do you remember?

Wasted days

sitting in twisted sheets,

sipping scalding coffee,

mussing my hair,

mapping your back

with eager hands 

exploring

learning

yearning.

The daytime 

sparks and scalds our skins.

so we stay in.

Huddled in each other,

until the moon called me home.

She wears your face now,

obscured by clouds,

she's made brighter,

as you made me. 

Irony, no?

Wasted time, enjoyed,

was not wasted.

I still waste daylight with 

you by my side. 

EmJ

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Dear Sir,

Hallo, sir. Today I came in to the spa you work at to redeem a massage coupon that has been gathering dust in my room for a few months. I received the certificate as a gift but have felt too guilty to use it. Then when the guilt went away I felt like I only wanted to use it when I felt like I deserved it.

Seeing as last night was the last night of my job and I will be finishing a program I have been working on for a year, it was high time I treated myself to a day of relaxation. You were very charming and so kind and even through the dim spa lighting, your eyes were bright and clear.

I was scared that the massage would be awkward; I was unsure if you were going to talk to me or if you did, I was afraid it would be stilted and bizarre. It was anything but. You were so personable and so driven. Your love of music was so inspiring and brilliant.

Thanks for talking to me about how much you love the little pure moments in music that everyone seems to miss. Thank you for telling me about your dreams to build the perfect guitar amp. Thank you for telling me you loved my name and telling me it sounds like the name of an author. That right there won you about 800 points.

It's people like you that make me love art and love creativity. Your soul was so connected to your hands and your hands were connected to your heart. When you started talking about your dreams for your music and electronics, I could feel the passion spilling from your hands into me. Thank you sincerely for sharing that with me today. Your passion is remarkable and something that is deserving of praise and love.

Passionate people are hard to come by. Even worse, passionate people who aren't afraid of their passion are hard to find. You aren't afraid of it and you embrace it. It's beautiful.

I loved talking music with you and talking about the horrible people who hit on us at our jobs. You're funny and sweet. Also cute. That too.

Let's go get curry sometime?

Yours,

EmJ

Mental Health Day

On Monday when my teacher was working with me on oral surgery, she leaned in and said, "Sooo... I have some family things to attend to so I won't be able to be here on Tuesday or Wednesday. So if you wanted to not come to school... that would be ok. I just feel like the other teachers aren't ready to teach you alone so if you want to take some time off... go ahead."

Don't have to tell me twice. 

I was in need of a major mental health day. I've been so stressed about moving and finishing school and  I just continually put so much pressure on myself. And now the day of my move is set in stone. I'll be in my new place on August 1st. WHAT EVEN?! I'm scared but I feel better after my last post all about my stress. Sometimes you just have to word vomit. And it heals.

But I took the opportunity today to rest and recover. I slept in, cuddled with my dogs, read a ton, ate a pound of mac and cheese. (Side note, can we all agree that shaped mac and cheese tastes 100% better than regular mac and cheese? This is science.)

Look at these beans. Lexi top left, Vo on the right, and Emmy lounging
like the Queen she is.

After I spent my day relaxing, Niki and I went and got snow cones and sat outside in the summer breeze. We wanted corn dogs but after that plan was foiled we settled on my favorite food, Pad Thai. Always the best option.

It was a successful mental health day. Everyone deserves one every now and then. Sometimes, contrary  to popular belief, it is the adult thing to do to blow off responsibilities and take some time to heal your mind and let your body rest.

Namaste, ya'll.