a small voice with large sentiment

Monday, September 16

Hello beautiful people.

For lack of better words, it has been a pretty hellacious few days here. My tightrope has been shaking quite a bit and my footing has fallen quite a few times. I'm still missing him like crazy, it feels like my internship will never end, a dear friend of mine is struggling with a break up (sends every hug in the world), and I just found out my grandmother was just diagnosed with cancer. So, this weekend could have been better.

There were a few bright sides this weekend, though. For one thing, my grandmother is just fine. She doesn't feel like it's her time or that it's anything to fret much over. She's still planning a cruise this February with my grandfather and she will be in Europe this summer come hell or high water. She's a soldier. I think I'm probably more upset than she is. I just don't like hearing about cancer in the fam. That hit my clan hard a few years ago and it always shocks my system. But if she's not worried, I'll try to not worry as well. But all good vibes are welcome her way.

Bright side two, a dear dear (I'm saying it Shelby) BEST friend of mine is staying in town and we get to live together :) I'm breaking the news. I'm excited. So thrilled. This girl has become a rock for me. I love you.

Bright side three. I had been missing my favorite bracelet and I found my favorite shirt missing yesterday. I was already emotional so I was just over the edge here you guys. BUT I found both my shirt and my bracelet.

Bright side four. You will never know how much it means to me to have you read my blog. This place is seriously the safest place I feel I have. I can say anything I want here and I love that I've created a home for my words here. The fact that some of you take a few moments out of your day to check in on my small corner of the internet means more to me than I can express in words. So here is just a little thank you from me. In hard times, the little encouragements I find in the comments or in direct emails light up my world. Today I got an email telling me my writing inspired them. But it's you that inspire me. Thank you so much for being here for me. I love you all with my whole heart.

Here's to a bright week ahead full of sun and moon xx

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4 comments:

  1. dammit lady!!! you can't do posts like this! i am in an emotional state, and cry over freaking everything!!! i love you, and i can't even wait to start over, and move out. it is seriously going to be glorious! you are amazing, and of course people are inspired by you! YOU lady have been MY rock this last little while, and I am soo grateful that we are BEST friends. who knew all of this would have happened because i was crazy enough to invite myself to a book club full of complete strangers from the internet... best decision of my life really.

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  2. I'm so sorry to hear about your grandmother. I will keep her in my prayers. And that quote could not ring more true. I firmly believe that we learn the most during trials and storms.
    xo TJ

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  3. After I read that quote, all I thought was, "Well THAT's true."

    And how exciting you and Shelby are going to live together! I don't know why haha but that makes me so happy for you both. Should be interesting and quite the adventure. I hope you're able to continue pushing through things.

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  4. I know how it feels to finally find things that have been missing for some time! So I feel yah!

    I do hope that your grandmother is okay. It's really difficult to see someone we love suffer.

    Love the quote, so true.

    Take care and God bless <3 :-)

    ~Melodies In The Sand~

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Thank you for your words; they light a fire in my heart. You are lovely.